I AM DEPRESSED AND SICK OF TIRED OF THIS WAITING I'M NOT GOING TO PRETEND THAT I'M HAPPY AND CHEERFUL AND ALL THE OTHER POSITIVE SUPERLATIVES ONE CAN ACTUALLY USE AS AN ADJECTIVE TO DESCRIBE ME COS I'M NOT I JUST WANNA BE PUT OUT OF MY MISERY SO I CAN BEGIN THE MENTAL PROCESS OF HAVING TO LIVE LIFE A DIFFERENT WAY I'M SORRY IF HOW I'M COMING ACROSS TO YOU MAY SEEM THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE OF WHAT YOU MAY NORMALLY SEE IN REAL LIFE COS I'M NOT GOING TO PRETEND ANY LONGER THAT I AM REALLY STRESSED OUT DESPITE HAVING NOTHING TO DO I AM NOT EMOTIONALLY DERANGED NOR AM I CONTEMPLATING SUICIDE I'M JUST IN A STATE IN WHICH EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE AROUND ME IS SEEN AS AN ANNOYANCE THAT IS UNABLE TO BE TOLERATED SO YES IN SHORT I AM PISSED WITH THE WORLD AND THERE IS NOTHING ANYONE CAN DO OR SAY TO HELP UNTIL D-DAY WHERE EVERYTHING SHALL BE REVEALED SO IN THE MEANTIME I'M JUST GOING TO SIT AND WAIT AND SOMEHOW FIND A BETTER WAY TO OCCUPY MY TIME THAN HOW IM FARING AT THIS CURRENT STATE OF TIME THIS IS SO SAD WORDS JUST CANNOT COME FLYING OUT OF MY HEAD AS QUICKLY AS THEY USED TO BACK IN THE DAYS FUCK I SOUND OLD BUT ITS THE TRUTH IT IS QUITE SAD THAT IM RAMBLING HERE ALL ALONE AT 2 IN THE MORNING THERE REALLY IS NOTHING BETTER TO DO BUT TO PLAY MY STUPID FIFA ALL DAY LONG FRANKLY SPEAKING I'M GETTING A 'LIL BIT BORED OF IT SO I GUESS I SHOULD REALLY FIND SOMETHING ELSE TO DO THAN PLAY A STUPID REPETITIVE OVER AND OVER AGAIN FUCK I CAN'T EVEN SPELL RIGHT I HAD TO MAKE 3 ATTEMPTS BEFORE I COULD ACTUALLY SPELL OUT REPETITIVE I'M BETTING AT THIS POINT YOU'VE PROBABLY IMAGINE THAT I'M MAD WHICH IS PROBABLY WHY YOU GUYS ARE ALL AVOIDING MAKING CONTACT WITH ME WELL I'M SORRY 'COS YOU KNOW WHAT I PROBABLY AM MAD BEING SO INDECISIVE LATELY ITS JUST SICKENING THAT I CAN'T SEEM TO BE ABLE TO MAKE A RATIONAL CHOICE NOWADAYS NOR AM I ABLE TO EVEN REMEMBER FULFILLING A SIMPLE CHORE LIKE BRINGING MY HANDPHONE OUT WITH ME WHEN I GO OUT I SHOULD PROBABLY SLEEP NOW SINCE I HAVE TO GET UP EARLY TOMORROW AND SINCE IM WASTING TIME WITH THIS MEANINGLESS POST NO I'M NOT TRYING TO SEEK PITY OR REMORSE I'M JUST BORED ANGRY DEPRESSED A BIT PSYCHOTIC AND EVERY NEGATIVE SUPERLATIVE YOU CAN FIND IN THE DICTIONARY NOW OH AND I CAN'T SLEEP EITHER SO YES THAT'S WHY I'M STILL UP TYPING THIS RUBBISH AH FUCK I SHOULD PROBABLY ATTEMPT TO SLEEP GOOD NIGHT WORLD HOPE EVERYTHING ELSE IS DOING WAY BETTER ON YOUR SIDE